Fight and Flight

My past employer is disputing my Unemployment claim based on “misrepresentation of facts” Basically, I got unemployment because the business is participating in illegal activities which is – not paying their employees on time. After that, I have been harassed and sent inappropriate messages before they even knew I applied for unemployment.

They’ve made me very emotional, angry and frustrated through this whole process and I think I have every reason to. So, I don’t want to represent myself during this hearing and would prefer a lawyer to handle it. I’m nervous and so uncomfortable but I know in the end I am right. Am I worried that I’m a low-income minority woman taking on 2 rich white male? Yes. Yes I am.

So if you have any suggestions or words of encouragement I could really use it for the next few days. I will keep fighting this.

-A

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So Much Good Signs!

I’ve never been the one to look at coincidences, events and symbols as signs of things to come, but lately I really think and believe that things are falling into place and I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I am happier – definitely no longer depressed. I feel productive and have been building momentum for working on my own things. I’m not sure where this creative steroid or high is coming from but I wish I can bottle it up and relish in it.

I’m nervous about my big move, but I know it’s what I’m supposed to do, and before that I have to finish a lot of work and fund it. Maybe I should just push for my $20,000 goal in one month. Realistic? Probably not but if for once I’m following signs, then maybe I should keep going with this in mind and really give it all I’ve got and go all in.

I’m not playing. I’m all in.

Best,
-A

Where the Wind Blows

I have officially told my roommate that I’m leaving at the end of the month in September. I’m not sure if it’s the best decision, but I know that I cannot afford to pay rent so I’ll be moving home. My income has been unpredictable and that’s the scary part when it comes to moving to a new city, but even as I’m typing this I am realizing that it makes so much sense to be home. I’ve been a little aggressive lately when it comes to side hustles, so I hope it all works out. Fortunately, moving back home means cutting some expenses, but my travel costs and a possible lost of access to my clients is a worry that I will face once I’ve settled in.

I wish it was so easy to save money to buy a house instead of rent, and to pay off debt. But I know that taking this step means I will be spending less and I can focus/ concentrate on my financial goals. It’s so easy to feel discouraged and nervous so blogging and typing about it actually really helps.

Boost!

I got a boost of happiness lately, I’m not sure what the source is. I think it’s doing what I love and being my own boss. I participated in a flea market sort of thing in my city this weekend, and I sold some of my crafts! The road getting there is a bit hard and difficult and I learned so much about how to work with people, but overall it was a great experience. I actually ended up almost wanting to stay in my city because of it. But I know not to be distracted by small victories as if they’re the source of my true happiness. In fact, I didn’t profit. But, what is important is that it gave me energy to keep pushing on working for myself. I want to make it so that I can have my own workshop/ studio but I probably need at least $10,000 to make that happen. I’ll need that soon too, since I’m about to give up my apartment. I’m questioning whether or not it’s the right decision but I kind of want to just decide and commit to it, so I can’t look back. I need to not have other options, so that failure can’t be one of them. I have to make it work. Fortunately, my new boost of energy has kept me so productive lately.

Here’s to hoping I can keep selling my crafts and keep finishing passion projects that will eventually lead to me actually getting paid by working for myself!

Best,

-S